If you ask anyone what type of person they are, they will usually lie and say only the positive. People are rarely able to describe themselves because while we know other people well, we do not know ourselves at all. Jacques Rigaut a French poet once said "Don't forget that I cannot see myself, that my role is limited to being the one who looks in the mirror".
Rigaut was probably talking about the outer self. How you view your features is subjective, but how you look at the real you is a matter of importance. Knowing who you really are will save you a lot of heartache and others a lot of pain.
Take for example what happened to me.
A couple of weeks ago I went to a party. The punch was nice and I had a bit too much more than I can usually handle. One person (who must needs remain nameless - I never give up a source unless the source does not mind) asked me about a relative. I started ranting and saying all sorts of rubbish.
Now, if I had been someone , I would say it was the punch talking and that I did not know what I was saying. But that will be a lie. I was quite alright sans the inhibitions which might have stopped me at any other time. A few days after the fated party I met the cousin I had ranted about and she asked me about what I had said (like we are in kindergarten!). She probably had the idea that she would shame me into retracting my words. Consequently she left more upset than when she arrived. I am not the type of person who never say what they do not mean and I never say what I cannot repeat. (Unless I am threatened with grievous bodily harm) Saves a lot of heartache and loss in translation.
This got me thinking that maybe I am not an especially nice person. I will not lie and say I will change because I am not going. That is me. I acknowledge that I might be difficult to live with even. I sometimes modify my words to spare other people's pain.
How many are aware of who they really are? Do you know the type of person you are?
peace,
fadz
Rigaut was probably talking about the outer self. How you view your features is subjective, but how you look at the real you is a matter of importance. Knowing who you really are will save you a lot of heartache and others a lot of pain.
Take for example what happened to me.
A couple of weeks ago I went to a party. The punch was nice and I had a bit too much more than I can usually handle. One person (who must needs remain nameless - I never give up a source unless the source does not mind) asked me about a relative. I started ranting and saying all sorts of rubbish.
Now, if I had been someone , I would say it was the punch talking and that I did not know what I was saying. But that will be a lie. I was quite alright sans the inhibitions which might have stopped me at any other time. A few days after the fated party I met the cousin I had ranted about and she asked me about what I had said (like we are in kindergarten!). She probably had the idea that she would shame me into retracting my words. Consequently she left more upset than when she arrived. I am not the type of person who never say what they do not mean and I never say what I cannot repeat. (Unless I am threatened with grievous bodily harm) Saves a lot of heartache and loss in translation.
This got me thinking that maybe I am not an especially nice person. I will not lie and say I will change because I am not going. That is me. I acknowledge that I might be difficult to live with even. I sometimes modify my words to spare other people's pain.
How many are aware of who they really are? Do you know the type of person you are?
peace,
fadz
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